Today I had an epiphany, an "ah ha" moment as Oprah would call it.
At the very moment that I was editing this photo for my blog I was listening to Super Soul Sunday, and in my peripheral auditory awareness I heard the following quote and it struck a huge chord "the making of art is no different than prayer" Rainn Wilson~ I knew instantly what this meant-"I GOT IT." This is the very reason people feel like they "have" to create, to make what they make-it's the spiritual connection.
For many years, I've struggled with the concept of God-now don't get all upset here-in my very, very deepest core I've known there was a higher power of some sort (I've just been reluctant to call this entity GOD)however,since I have begun my photographic journey my soul has been touched in a way that it has never been before.I've felt a very pleasurable connection-sort of like "coming home" after a long time away that I haven't found with any other form of expression.
I'm sometimes asked"how do you find bees on flowers, and those gorgeous sunsets?" and the answer is-bees on flowers are a very common occurrence, the sun sets every day...we just don't notice, we're so busy-caught up in getting here or going there, but when you get behind the camera lens an amazing thing happens-you start seeing GOD'S hand everywhere in everything-you begin looking at things in a very different way. I know in my very core that the sunset above was touched by the hand of GOD-there is no other explanation for it's awesome beauty.
It's interesting to me how quickly photography has become such an important aspect of my life, and now I think I know the answer"the making of art is no different than prayer." I've always had trouble meditating/praying and wondered "what was wrong with me." All this time I could never make the connection that other people were making to GOD-what's up with that? Why can I not feel whatever it is other people are feeling about GOD? I guess I'm just one of those people that can't pay attention long enough to do it-my mind just goes and goes and I have trouble concentrating for very long-but when I take a photograph and open it up on my computer screen-sometimes I am in awe and I know there is a GOD. I think this is exactly the point at which the "addiction" lies-I can't wait for the next opportunity to connect to/experience GOD. I can't wait to discover the next miracle that GOD will put in front of my camera lens and one miracle builds on another creating a stronger and stronger belief in GOD each day.